Breaking Heart | 4everlost23's Blog

I don't even know how I feel right now, I guess I am in shock. I just can not believe that my Auntie might be leaving this world soon. She has always been there for me really and truly she is like a second mother to me. Oh, I really don't know what to do now, I just feel so numb, like I can't believe it. It is true nothing can prepare you for the death of a loved one, nothing. I feel like I have actually stepped out of my body and am watching someone else. My heart is truly breaking right now. I am trying to be strong for my mom, and I feel as if I am not doing a job about it. It feels like there is a dam in inside me that holding back the waters as hard as it can, but the waters win. The floodgates have burst. I find myself doing the dishes, or taking a shower and out of the blue the tears just hit, so hard and I can not hold them back. I find myself just walking about trying to do ordinary things and just breaking down being racked with tears. I hope to go back to the hospital later today to see her again. My Aunt is a fighter, she gave this cancer a run for its money, but this is a battle that my auntie is going to lose. I don't know what to say but my heart is truly breaking. I am losing the woman who is literally my second mom. So sad I pray that she goes on to sleep in no pain.

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Posted on 10:46AM on Dec 31st, 2012
Sweetie thank you so much for your kind words. This is a very difficult time and your words mean so much to me :) Again thank you so much. I am so sorry for the loss of your Uncle. Its so difficult when you are so close to someone, the closer you are to them the more it hurts. Right now my heart feels like its been ripped to shreds. Thank you sweetie I know it takes time and it will get better :)
Posted on 11:22AM on Jan 3rd, 2013
I'm so sorry for youraunts pain and yours. Both my parents have passed on and I was so very close to my mother, so I know what you are going through. These bonds we have with those closest to us transcend this world and your aunt will always be with you. May you both find peace x
Posted on 01:10PM on Jan 3rd, 2013
oh this is sad to hear. so sorry . be strong
Posted on 11:27AM on Jan 4th, 2013
Thank you all so much for your words :) I am trying to prepare myself for her funeral tomorrow.
Posted on 12:20PM on Jan 7th, 2013
Thank you so much and I am sorry for your loss as well. No matter what we'll always miss them and wish to have them back with us. As you say we would do anything to bring them back, but we can't. I will be thinking of you as well and I hope that time is proving to be a healer for you.
Posted on 12:25AM on Apr 15th, 2014
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